Checking ME Out!

Well….it’s Saturday! Finally!!!!! I have been on the run all week between multiple PTA functions for my son’s school, facilitating a staff training for an agency, meeting with clients, and OF COURSE wearing my important hat fulfilling Mommy duties. And, I even managed to make it to the gym twice this week. Now, singulars I like my cute gym clothes, aka my fitted shirts and booty hugging leggings. Well, apparently someone else did too because I received some nice compliments from men AND women!

I can admit it made me feel good. And I took the compliments with appreciation and worked harder to “prove” how committed I was to my workout. Truth being told I WAS STRUGGLING thru it! Hell, I felt like my butt was about to topple me over on the treadmill, and my chest was pounding! My ass ain’t been in a gym consistently in 3 months. And the two days weekly just started last week.

When I finished my workout, I checked myself out in the mirror, and I saw a whole different reflection. I saw the 10lbs I gained since October, the bags under my eyes, and the shaky legs and trembling hands, and I could feel the weary heart working so hard to recuperate. Like I said….I have been struggling and “I’se ti’de boss!!!”

Since going full-time in my business, I have been focused on building and expanding. I have been taking on new clients and consulting, plus I still have to be full-time at home and fulfill my community duties. And rightfully so….my life is reflecting my need to rest, relax, and seek relief!

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Today, I curled up on my couch with my son, turned on two Disney movies, and slept thru a beautiful sunny day after my son insisted I take a nap because I was cranky and irritable. Against all of my desires to get up and clean up, I tried to “relax.” And… I did. That near 3 hr nap was lovely.

I am also trying to find my second wind and get back in my element. To return to my regular exercise and get back on my regular eating schedule. And sleep….I need to get in bed and ACTUALLY rest for more than 4 hours a night.  But damnit, it’s hard! Especially when trying to balance it ALL! And to be perfectly transparent, I am tense and stressed…but not stressed out.

According to the Child Development Institute, chronic tension can cause sleep disturbance, increased or decreased appetite, headaches, stomach aches, poor concentration or irritability, and our immune system can be weakened thus, making us more susceptible to colds and other infections.

Fortunately, I am not there…. but I recognize that if I don’t make any changes to my GO-GO-GO mindset and slow down a tab, I can be. The truth is, I have to place some limitations. I have to check ME out…regularly.

So next week, after I am rested and recharged, I am committing to hitting my workout flow 3x a week. To increase my  water intake, and eat MORE balanced meals. And to carry my hips to bed before 2am! Don’t judge…thats a big step for me! Who knows….maybe I will be able to FINALLY run that 8k this summer!

Have you been checking YOU out? Do you see your body wearing down, and if so, what are you doing about it?

~M